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Do you wonder about me?
Do you think that I’ve been losing sleep
Over what you did to me
I can tell you I’ve been dreaming and
Did you think that you could
Did you think that you could
Did you think that you could
Bring me down
Well go tell your friends
No this isn’t the end
No I promise you I will be
Sticking around
I’ve been holding my breath
For way too long
On this one
And I don’t know how long I can
Keep this up
I’ll play the same songs
Over and over
Convince myself I’m grown
I’m older
And I just want you to know
That
I’m thriving thanks for asking
I’m thriving thanks for asking
I will never hate myself
The way you want me to
And I am tired of playing
By all your rules
I’m done explaining
So stop complaining
And I just want you to know
That
I’m thriving thanks for asking
I’m thriving thanks for asking
I hope my hair looks cute
When I run into you x2
Do you wonder about me?
I’m thriving thanks for asking me x6
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They say speak your mind but not too loud and
You should love yourself but don’t be too proud
Well i’m done
Can’t always be so fun
I’m not being dramatic
I’ve just fucking had it
With the things that you say you think that i should be
Well i’m done
Can’t always be so fun
I’m done with being a chill girl
I’m trying to take over the world
Don’t tell me to calm down
I know
what i want
so please fuck off
I know
what i want
so please fuck off
Fuck off
Fuck off
Fuck off
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If my body’s broken
Does that mean that
I’m broken too?
Call me I’ll come over
But I know I won’t
Hear from you
I can’t even walk
One fucking block
From my house
I’m missing all the things
That made me feel alive
I wanna die
I’ve been cooped up inside
I can’t remember the last time
I felt good inside my head
If my body’s broken
Does that mean that
I’m broken too?
Call me I’ll come over
But I know I won’t
Hear from you
I’m saying cruel things
Every day to myself
Things I would never
Think to say to someone else
Why can’t I be on my own team
I wanna scream
I can’t remember the last time
I felt good inside my head
I’m still all the people
I’ve ever been
Can you believe me
No I’ll say it again x2
If my body’s broken
Does that mean that
I’m broken too?
Call me I’ll come over
But I know I won’t
Hear from you
I won’t hear from you
(I’m still all the people
I’ve ever been) x6
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Priority mail
I sent you a package
To say I love you
I live too far away
To visit like I used to
So priority mail
Don’t like driving
Like I used to
Almost died too many times
Makes me sad to think about
How I’d haunt you
Sending collect calls
From the afterlife
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i can’t play instruments very well
and i’ll eat all of your cereal
but I’ll never be a smoker
cause the second cigarette
makes me feel like shit
what if i came to your apartment
had a chat with your girlfriend
i bet she’d make me coffee
before i told her about you and me
being home never felt so bad
why is everyone here so mad
only here under obligation
its hard to pretend this is a vacation
i like getting coffee by myself
but i still know how you like yours
and going home is scary but
at least I’m in your stupid car doors
we’re so good at being alone
but we’re always together
and if i told you i loved you
i don’t know who
it would scare away faster
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I don't have any kitchenware
But I can walk around in my underwear
In my first apartment
Where I pay so much for rent
I check the mail
In my underwear
I don't where to put the pillows on my bed
Not sure what side is best to lay my head
Cars zoom by at early hours
And not even a shower curtain in my shower
But will you still come visit me on North Front street
And will you still watch the simpsons on my floor
Pretend it's 1994
Dvd's weren't out yet
So please ignore my box set
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I’ve been staying up
All night just as long
As I can remember
Let me tell you what it’s like
To freak out your friends
Your lovers
I’m doing my best to
Keep it in check but
It’s out of my control
There’s a man at the end
Of my bed and
He wants my soul
I know that you feel it too
I just wanna protect you
I want you to wake up
Next to me
Sorry when I dream I scream
I had night terrors
Every day this week
Promise not to
Kill you in my sleep
I’ve been staying up
All night just as long
As I can remember
Let me tell you what it’s like
I haven’t slept since
Last September
I’m doing my best to
Keep it in check but
It’s out of my control
It’s the only thing
In my life I haven’t outgrown
I know that you feel it too
I just wanna protect you
I want you to wake up next to me
Sorry when I dream I scream
I had night terrors
Every day this week
Promise not to
Kill you in my sleep x2
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Just because my
Ears are ringing
Doesn’t mean someone’s
Talkin’ about me
I like to think
Everyone’s too busy
In this big city
I’m not the kind of girl
I don’t know what kind
Of girl I would be
I just wanna take care of
My friends
My plants
And me
Do you ever think that
You could be someone
Who’s at the party
Not worried about
What other people
Might be thinking of me
I never thought I could
Be the one who was so
Carefree
But when I’m with you I can
Take on anyone or anybody
Let’s park by the airport
We can watch the planes
All hit the sky
My favorite songs on
In the gas station
Maybe it’s a sign
That everything will be
Alright and I can
Finally sleep at night
I promise I will try
In spite of
All the things that I hate
And all the shit they
Validate and all the
Traffic it takes to get
On over to your place
But I would stay awake so
Late if it meant I could
See your face
If you were a line
I’d tell people
You’re worth the wait
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Who are you to say I’m sorry
When we both know you’d
Do it all over again x2
I put you out of my head
And I started taking baths again
My moon is in cancer
I wish I was a better slow dancer
So I could tell you all my secrets
Underneath the disco ball
But you’d never keep them all
I don’t know if I’ll ever trust you
Again after what you did and
Who are you to say I’m sorry
When we both know you’d
Do it all over again x2
I haven’t talked to you in months
I thought we had both just moved on
Well I have a question
Is this just self-preservation?
So you can keep your reputation
Clean with everyone involved
But you’ll never fool them all
I don’t know if they’ll ever trust you
Again after what you did and
Who are you to say I’m sorry
When we both know you’d
Do it all over again x2
I’m tired of empty promises
I can’t take any more of this
Who are you to say I’m sorry when x8
I’m tired of empty promises
(who are you to say I’m sorry when)
I can’t take any more of this
(who are you to say I’m sorry when)
I’m tired of empty promises
I can’t take any more of this
And who are you to say I’m sorry
When we both know you’d
Do it all over again
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Do you wanna
Stay up all night
Playing dice
I promise I’m not as
Lucky as I used to be
Just know who you’re
Playing with there, guy
I’m much more self-assured
Than you’ll ever be
I will scream it from
The rooftops that
I am worthy of love
Let it hit me like a
Flash flood
Tumble under the
Weight of it all
And even when I feel small
I am a fucking fast ball
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I’m tired of
Staring into the sun
My eyes hurt and I’m
Done with lookin’ at
Everyone
Keep your eyes closed
Fingers crossed
You don’t know
Who I am just how I
Come across
I promise I’m a lot
Less fun
Sorry I keep it inside
I tend to
Compartmentalize
My relationships
The way I kiss
The things I say
I don’t shapeshift
And I want to let
You see me right
Through the version
That they see of me
Cause you’ll find out
Eventually
And if you call me up
Then I will come over
But I promise
I won’t be sober
I’m tired of staring into the sun x6
(and you are the one that
I will come home to
I never thought that
We would ever get this far)
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I wanna kiss you in the middle of a party
I wanna cause a scene
I want everyone to know that you are with me
We’ll dance to our own beat
And i don’t care if anybody’s watching me
When i’m homesick
I go to the supermarket
I buy all the things i think my mom would get
Why did i buy four apricots
I’ll never eat them before they rot
They’ll just become an afterthought
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I wanna hold a seance
For every heart i’ve broken
Put them all in a room
And say get over it
I’m fine
You’re alive
You’ll be ok
In some time
And i am bigger than the outside shell of my body
And if you touch it without asking then you’ll be sorry
I’m fine
You’re alive
You’ll be ok
In some time
And when i first met you
I wanted to kiss you
And i
I wanted to need you
And now i’m forgetting why
I tried
And you call me
the maid of the mist
I’ll probably cry when we kiss
You’ll ask me why do i
Have to be so serious
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When i was sixteen
I dated a boy
With my own name
It was weird
In the back of his truck
Moaning my own name
While trying to fuck
And i didn't think you had to
Go to town
And tell everybody's mom
That im
Sleeping around
Now i realize
That all my friends are
Mostly friends
With you
And i don't know
Who would show up to my
Barbecue
And i
Think you're the kind of guy
Who would
Meet me at a party and
Forget my name
And try to take me home
All the same
Now i
I'm all alone
In the grocery store
Wondering who
I'm buying all of these
Hot dogs for
And i
Think you're the kind of guy
Who would meet me at a party
And forget my name
And try to take me home
All the same
Now i
Will never barbecue again
And you can keep all of your
Shitty friends
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I feel like garbage
And it doesn’t mean that i’m wasted
Tell me if you can taste it
On my mouth
When i’m screaming at you so damn loud
I feel like dying
I don’t know why i’m not trying
To feel better
Don’t tell me it’s always about the weather
Can you tell
That my shoes are too big on my feet
And seeing you
Makes my boots so damn heavy
There’s pictures of you on the wall of my room
That i haven’t taken down yet what if they could summon you
And i’m trying so hard to be mad
But so far i’m just really fucking sad
Can you tell
That my shoes are too big on my feet
And seeing you
Makes my boots so damn heavy
And i am so lonely
In this big city
And everybody’s
So damn busy
And i am so lonely
In this big city
And everybody’s
So damn busy
And i am so lonely
In this big city
And everybody’s
So damn shitty
I feel like garbage
And it doesn’t mean that i’m wasted
Tell me if you can taste it
On my mouth
When i’m screaming at you so damn loud
I feel like dying
I don’t know why i’m not trying
To feel better
Don’t tell me it’s always about the weather
Something nice about knowing everyone feels hopeless
No one wants to think that they are all alone in this
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You’re doing that thing you like
But you’d rather be sleeping
Especially at night
Anxiety creeping in
I swear i’m good at this
I just want to sleep in
Your friends are going out on the town
You told them that you probably won’t be around
I swear i’m good at this
I just want to sleep in
I wanna be the best one at this
I wanna be the best one at this
I wanna be the best one at this
But i don’t wanna get out of bed
No i don’t wanna get out of bed
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How's your new Ivy League girlfriend?
Is she boring too in the way I couldn't stand?
And I'm not sorry
I just hope you trust her more than me
You never wanted to date a college girl
Well, I hope you got something out of that deal
Or made your parents proud
I bet she's not as loud
Does it feel better
To be in an Ivy League sweater?
Put your work shoes on
And talk about her at your shitty job
Does it feel better
In that cold Boston weather?
Fuck your Ivy League sweater
You know I was better
Fuck your Ivy League sweater
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I don’t write love songs
But I wrote a song
About you
If you wanted me to
Say I love you
Well I do
If you wanted me
To say I miss you
I do too
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I like
To stay in
The bath til
It gets cold
And i like
To see my
Hand all
Wrinkled
And i’ll stay
Til the waters drained
And i’ll stay
Til you call my name
I see my sister
My mother, i miss her
I know it’s hard
Showing the world
Who you are
(isn’t it?)
And these days
I could stay
In the bath til
I decay x2
I know you are patiently waiting
For some type of big unveiling
Of who you are
And what you mean
Outside of everyone in between
I’m sorry
I’m not that patient
I’ll never be patient
No!
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Just one birthday card sent to me
I missed my own surprise party
It’s me, i’m only 21 years old
And now i’m drinking alone
I use my phone until it dies
Just like my plants
Can’t keep anything alive
Alive
And i’m sick of being my own best friend
Will you be there in the end?
Who said i
Was a nice guy?
Not i
And i’ll tell you just what i want
I’ll tell you just what i want
I just wanna have ice cream on my birthday
Blow the candles out and wish all of my pain away
I know that you’re sorry
I just don’t care
(will you be my, my birthday date)
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This live album is our first full band live performance since the pandemic began, and it felt so good to be back shredding with pals. We invited Larz Brogan and Jackie Milestone (a studio collaborator on our cover of Metallica's The Unforgiven!) to join us on stage, set at Studio Two Three; a beloved nonprofit community art space in Richmond VA. We got to play through songs new and old, shake off the dust and remind ourselves how fun it is to jump around and rock out!! We hope this album can capture the fast and loose, fun freaky time we have on stage and live as an homage to the special nuances of the Diet Cig live world.
released December 3, 2021
Recorded by Christopher Daly
Mixed by Mike Butler
Mastered by Jamal Ruhe
Performed by Diet Cig
Alex Luciano: Vocals + Guitar
Noah Bowman: Drums
Larz Brogan: Bass + Vocals
Jackie Milestone: Keys + Vocals
All songs written by Alex Luciano and Noah Bowman
Published by Rough Trade Publishing
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